I Sincere Thank You

I'm probably the worst person when it comes to saying "Thank you" and letting others know they are appreciated. Then days come like today when I'm flooded with emotion, set off by a silly TV show, realizing how thankful I am to have someone in my life who cares, someone who tries very hard to see me smile, hear me laugh, make me happy...

I realize most the time I am terribly absent-minded and forgetful. But there are things you've done that I will never forget. I'm sitting here next to a list of them.

You saw me so very sad last Christmas. Sad that the holidays passed so quickly and I wanted so much for them to stay just awhile longer. You didn't ignore my sadness, the next week you bought a few more presents for me, laid them in front of the tree, turned the Christmas lights on to watch me happily open more gifts and experience Christmas celebrations again.

You made it important for me to enjoy my favorite things. Buying me daisies, not once, but twice which you knew were my favorite flower. Giving me an easter basket filled with my favorite things. Buying me cozy PJs so I would have warm clothes when I spend the weekends at your house. And most of all, you gave up your copy of NIN's Closure so that I could become a step closer to finishing my collection. It still is hard for me to believe that you would do that just for me.

It still makes me giggle when I think about the time we were at Best Buy and you snuck the Blu-Rays I wanted, but couldn't afford, to the checkout to give to me as a birthday present. I also now have my Simpsons collection complete because you bought me season 1. And I most definitely appreciate the times you filled up Black Sunshine for me "just because" you wanted to do something nice.

Of course it's not just the tangible things you've purchased for me. It's how you encourage me to be whatever I want to be, whether it be my strange aspiration to become a vegan or by desire to get back in college you never discourage me. You try to be there for me when I'm feeling down even if I'm horrible about verbalizing my emotions other than by saying "I'm sad."

You've never made me feel embarrassed for liking the things I do, like others have done in the past. You never talked down on Morrissey for being a passionate vegan, canceling shows due to his beliefs. You never talked down on the bro-steppers who make music by clicking a mouse.
You never talked down on Martha Stewart, Britney, Steve Jobs, or any others that I consider to be a hero of mine.

I can't begin to express how thankful I am that you've been there for me during good times and bad. For these things and the many others I have not even mentioned I appreciate you.