Still Can't Believe This Happened.

Sometimes prayers are really answered.

I got his number...

There's only several times in life when I'm so courageous, and this is one of them. It's like it came out of nowhere, fumbling with beer bottles, and my heart is about to race out of my chest but I still manage to do it.

I guess I'm still scarred from high school. I spent 4 years of my life liking the same guy, then when I finally get the courage to do something about it he shoots me down. Laughs in my face and treats me like a mockery. Ever since then, I've made no advances and try not to be the first to show any interest.

I won't lie that I'm terrified to text him. I still have the "should I or shouldn't I?" running through my brain. In my mind, there's a 95 percent chance that he won't text me back. Then again, I think, what have I got to lose. If he doesn't message me back I'll just grit my teeth and hold back the tears. Realize that it wasn't meant to be and I am nothing more than a fool.

I prayed that the feelings I have for him be taken from my heart, if it is not meant for him to be a part of my life. It is no mere coincidence that only days later he shows up and a burst of courage comes out of nowhere allowing me to act upon my feelings. Now either God is trying to bring me closer to him, or this is just mere act of his cruel humor. My only prayer now is that I am strong enough to take whatever lies in front of me.