I got really brave this evening and tried them on...
They fit!
A very tight fit, but a fit nonetheless...
So shocked, I wanted to cry!
I've lost a total of 32 pounds...
My goal is still so far away and the closer I get the harder I have to fight.
I've never been 100 percent content with my appearance. There are many days I don't even want to look in the mirror and even more days I want to throw the scale out the window. To make it even worse people are not the least bit shy about stating the obvious with remarks and insults, even at times without trying. (Get ready for the rant part of this blog)
I was so so so sick of the comment "she's pretty for a big girl." No one could ever just say "She's pretty," they had to add those last four words which diminished the point of even making a compliment. Either you're pretty or not, that's about the same as saying: "She's pretty for a redhead," which I interpret as, you don't like redheads but you might possibly make an exception for this one.
Now here's what I really hate: all the guys that say "You're so thick" or "You got some thick legs." Really, what the hell is that about? I absolutely despise that word, not only because it's another "fat" word, moreso because it makes me feel like a slab of beef; something you might see on a TV commercial "Our select ribeyes are thick and juicy, grilled to perfection!" Now, pardon my language, but "I aint no motha fuckin ribeye... I'm a lady."
So I know that these remarks are not going to go away any time in the near future and I'm pretty sure that may even become more absurd. However, I just hope that soon no one will have reason to make them to me...
Now here's some happy music that always makes me want to dance
*big grin!!*
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